Memorials
In Loving Memory of R.J. Brislin 10.31.91-09.29.07
It is so hard to lose someone you really love. I recently lost one of the people that truly meant everything to me and I miss him so much. I miss everything about him. I miss staying up late and helping him with his homework and girl problems and the late night trips to the park just to get out of the house and the all day guitar hero tournaments and the scary movie marathons and waking up early to make breakfast and playing paintball in the freezing cold and turning our rooms into forts then deciding they weren't good enough so we would build a real fort in the backyard and sleep in it until we got to cold or scared. I miss hunting for snipes and the soulja boy dance lessons and racing 4-wheelers and going to the creek to catch crawfish and throwing them at each other. Most of all i miss the sound of his voice and hearing him laugh and knowing that everyday i wake up he will be there. I hate myself so much because i promised him everything was gonna be okay that all he had to do is be strong and try his hardest and everything would work out. I lied to him. He held up his part of the bargain. He fought so hard until the very last breath. In that last hour i held his hand and prayed that he would forgive me and i prayed that he knew how much i loved him and how it wasn't gonna be the same without him. I tried not to let him see me cry bu i couldn't help it. He saw me and he was upset and confused. He didn't understand what was happening to him. I wish i could tell him how much i love him and how much i miss him. I want to give him a hug and tell him how much i care. Why did this happen to him. He was only 15 years old. He did not deserve this. On the day we laid him to rest i decided that I would try to live my life the best to my ability just like he did. I'm not going to let anything or anyone hold me back from reaching my goals and dreams. To RJ: you were the best little brother anyone could ever ask for. You taught me so much about life and i am so thankful for that. I love you so much sweetie and you will always be my favorite Roberta Josephine! I miss you and I can't wait until the day when i get to see you face again! I love you RJ!